A British mother named Alex Kramer recently shared a heartbreaking story of suffering 35 miscarriages despite desperately wanting children.
The Daily Star reports Kramer and her fiance, Scott, have two living children, Isobella and Josh, who miraculously survived when their siblings did not.
Kramer said she does not know why she has lost so many children to miscarriage, but she wants to share her story to support other mothers who also are struggling with similar losses.
“I am blessed to have two beautiful children and I know there will be people out there thinking, ‘Why is she still doing this?’” the north London mother said.
The family hopes to have one more child before giving up, but Kramer said this month will be the last time they try to have a child.
“But for every person who thinks that way there will be those who will understand my longing for another child – the dream of holding tiny newborn hands and kissing little feet, as well as the grief and pain I feel every time I miscarry,” she said. “To those people going through what I am, I just want to say you are not alone.”
Thinking back to the first time she and Scott became pregnant, Kramer said they were so excited. But their joy turned to heartbreak when she miscarried the baby a short time later.
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“I was heartbroken. But you think, ‘OK, let’s try again,’ but obviously I had no idea what lay ahead.”
Alex became pregnant and miscarried another nine times before finally giving birth to Isobella in January 2013.
She then suffered a further five miscarriages before Josh was born in July 2014.
Having a boy and girl, she admits she felt blessed – but she longs for a third child.
She said: “I genuinely thought I was done. But I always wanted a big family. Since trying for a third I’ve suffered a further 20 losses.
“I’ve had every test and investigation going as they tried to find out why I was having recurrent miscarriages. Nothing ever showed up. And having carried two children to full term I keep thinking, ‘What if this month is the month that I get my third baby?’.
The couple had hoped for a third child, but Kramer said she knows that may not happen.
“You try not to cry because you don’t want to add any stress or anxiety to your body, and also because life keeps going. I’m so lucky to have kids, but you do cry,” she said.
She urged mothers who miscarry to not be afraid to grieve and ask for help.
“To all those women going through this, it’s OK to own your grief, to be sad and to ask for support from those closest to you,” Kramer said. “You don’t have to keep what you’re going through a secret, or brush it under the carpet like it doesn’t matter. It’s your reality and your pain.”