Over at “Loving Them Both,” pro-life blogger Sarah Terzo quotes from what is one of the most illuminating and thoughtful stories ever written about people who work in the abortion industry. It is from a woman who worked at a Dallas abortion clinic years and years ago, explaining how she coped with the demands of doing her job.
“This may sound like repression: however, it does work for me. When I find myself identifying with the fetus, and I think the larger it gets, that’s normal… then I think it’s okay to consciously decide to remind ourselves to identify with the woman. The external criteria of viability really isn’t what it’s about. It’s an unwanted pregnancy and that’s the bottom line.”
The quote appeared in the story, “Abortion providers share inner conflicts,” which ran in the July 12, 1993, issue of the American Medical News. I would like to offer a few thoughts about what this remarkable story told us then, and tells us now.
To begin with here is the abstract/summary:
“The National Abortion Federation [NAF] sponsored a series of workshops for people who counsel women and perform abortions. In general, the providers explored their ambivalence on performing the procedures. For example, they expressed misgivings about women who have a high number of repeat abortions and who wait until late in their pregnancies to choose to abort. In addition, they discussed the physical and spiritual implications to the fetus.”
The operative word is “ambivalence” or “qualms,” which, in fact, may seriously understate what many of those quoted in the story were experiencing. But reporter Diane Gianelli’s point was…who knew? Not many outside the insiders themselves knew about this “well-kept secret.”
“But among themselves — at work, or at meetings with other providers — they talk about how they really feel. About women-who come in for ‘repeat’ abortions. About women whose reasons. for having abortions aren’t ones they consider valid. About their anger toward women who wait until late in their pregnancies to have elective abortions. And about the feelings they have toward the fetus, especially as gestational age increases.”
Gianelli’s observes that “Oddly enough, many of the issues that disturb abortion foes also seem to trouble providers”:
“They wonder if the fetus feels pain. They talk about the soul and where it goes. And about their dreams, in which aborted fetuses stare at them with ancient eyes and perfectly shaped hands and feet, asking, ‘Why? Why did you do this to me?’”
Well, then how can they do what they do, day in, day out, year after year? It’s because ultimately
“[T]hey have different moral balance sheets. For providers, the bottom line is the woman’s life and the particular circumstances that drive her to choose abortion. For opponents, the bottom line is what actually happens during an abortion: a human life is taken.”
Let me make two observations. First, you (or at least I) might have a difference sense of where “nurses, doctors, counselors and others who work in the abortion field” are today. Not that they aren’t still troubled at some level, but rather that perhaps because pro-lifers have made serious inroads these last two decades, they are even more publicly belligerent. But it is also true that some are leaving their grisly work behind them.
For those who remain, I don’t sense that whether a woman has one abortion or four makes any difference to them. It’s like that distinction (which was a major area of concern in this workshop) has come and gone for them. But we can hope and pray that the acute discomfort (to put it mildly) that some expressed at the NAF workshop over “late” abortions and sex-selection abortions exists today.
Second, what was true then, I believe, is even more true today. What we say does have an impact even on those who work in the abortion industry. The only way they can live with themselves is to blame us for pricking their consciences.
For instance there was one case the reporter heard discussed in which a couple had been happily married for twelve years, unexpectedly became pregnant, and more or less drifted into having an abortion for “no concrete reason.” The discussion leader said
“This is where the opposition has had an effect on us. Stop and think: Where did you get this notion that there has to be some very special, particular, some sort of reason that’s better than some other sort of reason? I think you got it from the anti-abortion movement in America. They have so little to hang their hat on, that one of the things they’ve chosen to hang it on is that there are all these women out there who are having abortions for frivolous reasons.”
“Frivolous” is a loaded word and is intended to move the discussion on grounds they feel more comfortable on. The truth is—and has been for decades—that a majority of the American people are uncomfortable with the reasons over 90% of the abortions in this country are performed.
They would not use the word frivolous. But it is completely accurate to say that their “moral balance sheet” is far closer to the one we have drawn up than to the pro-abortionist’s.
Let me conclude with a quote from “Abortion providers share inner conflicts” that comes near the very end. It is very telling.
“A nurse who had worked in an abortion clinic for less than a year said her most troubling moments came not in the procedure room but afterwards. Many times, she said, women who had just had abortions would lie in the recovery room and cry, ‘I’ve just killed my baby. I’ve just killed my baby.’
“’I don’t know what to say to these women,’ the nurse told the group. ‘Part of me thinks, ‘Maybe they’re right.’”
LifeNews.com Note: Dave Andrusko is the editor of National Right to Life News and an author and editor of several books on abortion topics. This post originally appeared in at National Right to Life News Today —- an online column on pro-life issues.