Unbreak My Heart: Singer Toni Braxton Faces Immense Guilt Over Abortion, Feared “God’s Payback”

National   |   Steven Ertelt   |   May 19, 2014   |   4:31PM   |   Washington, DC

The “pro-choice” side of the abortion debate bends over backwards to deny abortion could ever pose any problems for women. They deny the damage abortion does to women — the medical problems, the mental health issues, the damaging of relationships with friends and family, and the destruction of relationships with God.

Singer Toni Braxton understands the grief of an abortion. Not only does she regret the abortion she had, she’s worried about the spiritual ramifications of it. Not only has abortion been proven to cause a host of mental health problems for women, but spiritual problems as well — as women struggle with forgiving themselves and finding forgiveness from God.

tonibraxtonEven 10 years later, the well-known R&B singer struggles to come to grips with her abortion and taking her own child’s life.

From The Blaze:

At the time, the unwed singer was apparently in the middle of a six-month prescription for Accutane, a strong anti-acne drug that is said to potentially impact fetuses when she found out that she was pregnant with then-boyfriend Keri Lewis’ baby, the New York Daily News reported.

While she reportedly admits in the book that the abortion was more centered on convenience than the fear of abnormalities, numerous outlets report that concern over the drug’s potential impact on the fetus played a role in her decision.

Braxton, who married Lewis in 2001 and divorced him in 2013, admits in her new memoir, “Unbreak My Heart,” that she felt immense guilt after the abortion, especially considering her strict, Christian upbringing.

Braxton went on to have children with Lewis, though the termination had a profound impact on her perspective. She later had two sons — Diezel, 11, who is autistic, and 12-year-old Denim.



The singer found herself wondering whether Diezel’s autism was God’s retribution for her decision to end the earlier pregnancy and whether her parents’ messy divorce and her lupus diagnosis in 2010 were additional punishments.

“Is God punishing me for that abortion?,” she writes in the book, noting that she found herself thinking that it was “God’s payback to give my son autism.”